Friday, May 25, 2012

I am an African


I am an African.

I owe my being to the hills and the valleys, the mountains and the glades, the rivers, the deserts, the trees, the flowers, the seas and the ever-changing seasons that define the face of our native land.

My body has frozen in our frosts and in our latter day snows. It has thawed in the warmth of our sunshine and melted in the heat of the midday sun. The crack and the rumble of the summer thunders, lashed by startling lightening, have been a cause both of trembling and of hope.

The fragrances of nature have been as pleasant to us as the sight of the wild blooms of the citizens of the veld.

The dramatic shapes of the Drakensberg, the soil-coloured waters of the Lekoa, iGqili noThukela, and the sands of the Kgalagadi, have all been panels of the set on the natural stage on which we act out the foolish deeds of the theatre of our day.

At times, and in fear, I have wondered whether I should concede equal citizenship of our country to the leopard and the lion, the elephant and the springbok, the hyena, the black mamba and the pestilential mosquito.

A human presence among all these, a feature on the face of our native land thus defined, I know that none dare challenge me when I say - I am an African!

I owe my being to the Khoi and the San whose desolate souls haunt the great expanses of the beautiful Cape - they who fell victim to the most merciless genocide our native land has ever seen, they who were the first to lose their lives in the struggle to defend our freedom and dependence and they who, as a people, perished in the result.

Today, as a country, we keep an audible silence about these ancestors of the generations that live, fearful to admit the horror of a former deed, seeking to obliterate from our memories a cruel occurrence which, in its remembering, should teach us not and never to be inhuman again.

I am formed of the migrants who left Europe to find a new home on our native land. Whatever their own actions, they remain still, part of me.

In my veins courses the blood of the Malay slaves who came from the East. Their proud dignity informs my bearing, their culture a part of my essence. The stripes they bore on their bodies from the lash of the slave master are a reminder embossed on my consciousness of what should not be done.

I am the grandchild of the warrior men and women that Hintsa and Sekhukhune led, the patriots that Cetshwayo and Mphephu took to battle, the soldiers Moshoeshoe and Ngungunyane taught never to dishonour the cause of freedom.

My mind and my knowledge of myself is formed by the victories that are the jewels in our African crown, the victories we earned from Isandhlwana to Khartoum, as Ethiopians and as the Ashanti of Ghana, as the Berbers of the desert.

I am the grandchild who lays fresh flowers on the Boer graves at St Helena and the Bahamas, who sees in the mind's eye and suffers the suffering of a simple peasant folk, death, concentration camps, destroyed homesteads, a dream in ruins.

I am the child of Nongqause. I am he who made it possible to trade in the world markets in diamonds, in gold, in the same food for which my stomach yearns.

I come of those who were transported from India and China, whose being resided in the fact, solely, that they were able to provide physical labour, who taught me that we could both be at home and be foreign, who taught me that human existence itself demanded that freedom was a necessary condition for that human existence.

Being part of all these people, and in the knowledge that none dare contest that assertion, I shall claim that - I am an African.

I have seen our country torn asunder as these, all of whom are my people, engaged one another in a titanic battle, the one redress a wrong that had been caused by one to another and the other, to defend the indefensible.

I have seen what happens when one person has superiority of force over another, when the stronger appropriate to themselves the prerogative even to annul the injunction that God created all men and women in His image.

I know what if signifies when race and colour are used to determine who is human and who, sub-human.

I have seen the destruction of all sense of self-esteem, the consequent striving to be what one is not, simply to acquire some of the benefits which those who had improved themselves as masters had ensured that they enjoy.

I have experience of the situation in which race and colour is used to enrich some and impoverish the rest.

I have seen the corruption of minds and souls in the pursuit of an ignoble effort to perpetrate a veritable crime against humanity.

I have seen concrete expression of the denial of the dignity of a human being emanating from the conscious, systemic and systematic oppressive and repressive activities of other human beings.

There the victims parade with no mask to hide the brutish reality - the beggars, the prostitutes, the street children, those who seek solace in substance abuse, those who have to steal to assuage hunger, those who have to lose their sanity because to be sane is to invite pain.

Perhaps the worst among these, who are my people, are those who have learnt to kill for a wage. To these the extent of death is directly proportional to their personal welfare.

And so, like pawns in the service of demented souls, they kill in furtherance of the political violence in KwaZulu-Natal. They murder the innocent in the taxi wars.

They kill slowly or quickly in order to make profits from the illegal trade in narcotics. They are available for hire when husband wants to murder wife and wife, husband.

Among us prowl the products of our immoral and amoral past - killers who have no sense of the worth of human life, rapists who have absolute disdain for the women of our country, animals who would seek to benefit from the vulnerability of the children, the disabled and the old, the rapacious who brook no obstacle in their quest for self-enrichment.

All this I know and know to be true because I am an African!

Because of that, I am also able to state this fundamental truth that I am born of a people who are heroes and heroines.

I am born of a people who would not tolerate oppression.

I am of a nation that would not allow that fear of death, torture, imprisonment, exile or persecution should result in the perpetuation of injustice.

The great masses who are our mother and father will not permit that the behaviour of the few results in the description of our country and people as barbaric.

Patient because history is on their side, these masses do not despair because today the weather is bad. Nor do they turn triumphalist when, tomorrow, the sun shines.

Whatever the circumstances they have lived through and because of that experience, they are determined to define for themselves who they are and who they should be.

We are assembled here today to mark their victory in acquiring and exercising their right to formulate their own definition of what it means to be African.

The constitution whose adoption we celebrate constitutes and unequivocal statement that we refuse to accept that our Africanness shall be defined by our race, colour, gender of historical origins.

It is a firm assertion made by ourselves that South Africa belongs to all who live in it, black and white.

It gives concrete expression to the sentiment we share as Africans, and will defend to the death, that the people shall govern.

It recognises the fact that the dignity of the individual is both an objective which society must pursue, and is a goal which cannot be separated from the material well-being of that individual.

It seeks to create the situation in which all our people shall be free from fear, including the fear of the oppression of one national group by another, the fear of the disempowerment of one social echelon by another, the fear of the use of state power to deny anybody their fundamental human rights and the fear of tyranny.

It aims to open the doors so that those who were disadvantaged can assume their place in society as equals with their fellow human beings without regard to colour, race, gender, age or geographic dispersal.

It provides the opportunity to enable each one and all to state their views, promote them, strive for their implementation in the process of governance without fear that a contrary view will be met with repression.

It creates a law-governed society which shall be inimical to arbitrary rule.

It enables the resolution of conflicts by peaceful means rather than resort to force.

It rejoices in the diversity of our people and creates the space for all of us voluntarily to define ourselves as one people.

As an African, this is an achievement of which I am proud, proud without reservation and proud without any feeling of conceit.

Our sense of elevation at this moment also derives from the fact that this magnificent product is the unique creation of African hands and African minds.

Bit it is also constitutes a tribute to our loss of vanity that we could, despite the temptation to treat ourselves as an exceptional fragment of humanity, draw on the accumulated experience and wisdom of all humankind, to define for ourselves what we want to be.

Together with the best in the world, we too are prone to pettiness, petulance, selfishness and short-sightedness.

But it seems to have happened that we looked at ourselves and said the time had come that we make a super-human effort to be other than human, to respond to the call to create for ourselves a glorious future, to remind ourselves of the Latin saying: Gloria est consequenda - Glory must be sought after!

Today it feels good to be an African.

It feels good that I can stand here as a South African and as a foot soldier of a titanic African army, the African National Congress, to say to all the parties represented here, to the millions who made an input into the processes we are concluding, to our outstanding compatriots who have presided over the birth of our founding document, to the negotiators who pitted their wits one against the other, to the unseen stars who shone unseen as the management and administration of the Constitutional Assembly, the advisers, experts and publicists, to the mass communication media, to our friends across the globe - congratulations and well done!

I am an African.

I am born of the peoples of the continent of Africa.

The pain of the violent conflict that the peoples of Liberia, Somalia, the Sudan, Burundi and Algeria is a pain I also bear.

The dismal shame of poverty, suffering and human degradation of my continent is a blight that we share.

The blight on our happiness that derives from this and from our drift to the periphery of the ordering of human affairs leaves us in a persistent shadow of despair.

This is a savage road to which nobody should be condemned.

This thing that we have done today, in this small corner of a great continent that has contributed so decisively to the evolution of humanity says that Africa reaffirms that she is continuing her rise from the ashes.

Whatever the setbacks of the moment, nothing can stop us now!
Whatever the difficulties, Africa shall be at peace!
However improbable it may sound to the sceptics, Africa will prosper!

Whoever we may be, whatever our immediate interest, however much we carry baggage from our past, however much we have been caught by the fashion of cynicism and loss of faith in the capacity of the people, let us err today and say - nothing can stop us now!

Thabo.Mbeki

STILL I RISE

Still I Rise
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.
Maya Angelou

Its never 2 late 2 say "thank you"! To show appreciation as we continue to count our blessings be thankful for all it is that we have been granted and to share our blessings with others as a sign of graduate and thankfulness.

Its never 2 late 2 forgive,to let go of all those that have left scars on our hearts because by forgiving them we're allowing these scars to heal.

Its never 2 late 2 learn new things,to explore avenues that we've never traveled discover new things each day.To open up or minds and to listen and learn from those with greater knowledge.

Its never 2 let 2 let go! To let go of all those chains that are holding you back,to break free and to start living your life the way that you want to instead of trying to please those around you and to start living your life like it golden.

Its never 2 late 2 start dreaming,for a person without dreams,a plan and aspirations is a person with no direction and he serves no purpose on this earth.

Its never 2 late 2 start loving and to say"I love you" for the love that we share with the rest of the world says that we are ready to receive greater joy and happiness in our lives and its so much greater to open up your heart to others but remember to love yourself before sharing your heart with world.

Its never 2 late 2 start changing,to grow and to mature into the person that you want to be,to let go of your old ways and to start your life on a new chapter.Change is good it maybe hard today but tomorrow it will be worth it.

Its never 2 late 2 join us on our journey with God as Christians and firm believers for he holds greater power,works in miraculous ways he lives in us and as he's children we are blessed! Oh yes we are

Its never 2 late! Take that chance its within the reach of your arms and even though things may seem unclear now,remember that its never 2 late because the seeds that we plant today will produce great fruit one day!

So I guess its never 2 late my dear lovers and friends!

Feared by the devil


I am a woman feared by the devil when I wake up and step on my side mat all hell breaks loose! He trembles in fear of what greatness it is that I am to conquer today! Its in the words that I speak! The tone of my voice! My walk my talk the way that I swag! My style my shape oh he fears me and all that's in me!

He is intimidated by the knowledge that I carry in me! He crawls down in shame when he smells my scent from a distance! Alerts all he's slaves that I have arrived and so they should be aware! He hears my heals on the corridors of hell! Shocked at how he's evilness and temptations don't weaken me!

Still I rise still I rise,he respects me for the woman that I am,he says its in the values that I have,in the dignity and morals that I've inherited from my great ancestors he says he salutes me for who I am and how I've continued to carry myself.

I make him bow! And I tell him that my God is greater than he could ever be,he bows he's head in shame and I say its in the way that I flick my weave how I swing my hips and how I grace the world with great presence and pride oh this man fears me!

My success and accomplishments weaken him! When I pray he's soul rips in pain! Its in the prayers that I say!The hymns that I sing and the Lord that I serve...I'm walking with the great1! The great1 from above and this is why I am a woman feared by the devil himself

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Death...


So we meet again.I'm in my highest heels got my make-up on point got my black dress,my hair is styled and to complete the look I've got my shades on.Like every other time I think I'm ready,until the final day then you reveal the weakness in me till the tears run down my race and I'm at my weakest.

You've managed to creep into my family once again, you've taken what belongs to me once again nd yes once again you've pierced into my heart and stolen what was once a part of my life...you make me wonder, and ask questions that no man has answers to! You've taken me to the graveyard once again and again and again but still I can never get used to you. Sometimes it takes years to sink in and but still these wounds that you've created have not healed.

Look its ok! Its ok that you come when I least expect you to,but its ok, its ok that you come and take those that I love the most,its ok... I've seen them come and I've seen them go and my gran says I'm still to see a lot but its ok... One day we'll meet and I'll stare at you right in the eye but till then please be gentle,give me a break once in a while...please don't take them all at once spare my grandparents and my parents so that they can atleast see me obtain my phd and walk down the isle.

You are not my best friend! No man is! But please be friendly! Be gentle and kind if you can...I love these people and cannot afford to loose anymore of them.
You've made me weak! Torn me down and at times you've made me feel as though I could never move on and continue to live my life.So please be gentle ALLOW MY SOUL TO HEAL,till we meet again

Overcome Your Fears


I am a woman feared by the devil hated by many and appreciated by those who have taken the time to actually get to know me.I've grown to understand that people will throw their evil words and sometimes unnecessary comments but I've chosen not to care.I will continue to grace the world with my head up high,dignity and pride...my mommy taught me well.

And you know what...such is life,not everyone is going to love you and not everyone is going to appreciate you "THAT'S JUST THE WAY IT IS". Its sad how people continue to point out fingers yet forget to look at themselves and revaluate their lives before rushing into gossiping about others. We are all human and we cannot and will never be perfect!.We make mistakes and we learn from them. That's the beauty of life.We are all here to create ourselves and to become "the better person".

Singa'dinwa habantu and what it is that they have to say! We're moving up from here,the bottom is too crowded.We cannot continue to hide behind the shadows of others because we are to afraid to live.
Live child live! Dance to the rhythm of your own beat! Sin songs! Songs of wisdom and songs of knowledge so that you can also teach those around you.Keep your heels,head and standards high! Know your worth don't scoop too low! But also remember to be humble,don't look down on others and be respectful.

Don't loose your values nama sigo wa se khaye!Don't compare yourself to those around you! Your different,unique and special so embrace it. Appreciate who you are and what God has blessed you with.People will always have something to say others will be jealous,some will compete with you in secrete but still claim to be your friends.

Others can't wait to see you fall but you are*DESTINED FOR GREATNESS(don't ever forget this).Someday soon your going to make it because your a product of the *Worlds greatest ...let your faith be bigger than your fears we cannot fail with God by our side!

A.Recovered.Heart

Many wonder why I've been single for almost 3years now. The reactions on their faces are classic throwing questions like "how have you survived?don't you get lonely?what's your problem?" Or my favorite one"who hurt you that badly".


Well here it is
"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t, nothing can make him stay. Never let him know everything, he will use it against you later. He’s a man. Nothing more, nothing less. You should never look for someone to complete you. A relationship is consisted of two whole individuals. Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are and know that you’re readily available, he will take you for granted.” -Oprah


I want to be in a relationship with the right person,for the right reasons and at the right time.. I've had to take sometime away from the aches and pains,those smiles and those tears and the ups and downs of this love game.I've had to take some time to have conversations with myself and with my heart. I wanted to love myself completely before I could love anyone else,to complete myself before I could call someone "my better half".

I've seen it in my circles of friendships,how we fall into the arms of a person that we do not know simply because we like the "idea" of being with someone else,the "idea" of having someone tell you that your beautiful,that your special and that he will always be there forever. I don't want someone who is going to tell me that he is going to be here forever because no man knows how long forever is. I want a man that going to tell me that he will be here every step of the way,that he will keep me going when I've lost all my strenght:note I said "I want a man" not that I "need a man".

I've been hurt! Felt like I was cheated! Like I had been taken on a ride! Used and abused and I'd be stupid to fall into that trap again! To fall into the arms of a partner that's not willing to catch me! I think I'm worth more than that! Now that I've learned what it feels like to cry,I feel like I also deserve a slice Of happiness and this time I want to be caught before I hit the ground!!

All I'm saying is that we shouldn't rush into things before we are fully sure that we want to.That you should learn to appreciate and love yourself before you could love another person.

I'm at an age where I want stability I'm abit too matured for little micky mouse games that are only going to waste my time.If I'm going to invest my emotions it has to be with someone that I can build a future with,someone who is going to be worth my time and my emotions because these things can get abit emotionally draining and abit heavy on the heart.

You don't want to be in and out of relationships trying to find "the one".Let time play its part and a lot of the time you have to "create, shape and mold" your partner to be the one.

Invest your emotions on people that are going to build you as an individual.don't leave your heart in all these different places with all your ex's.Save some of that love for your life,husband or your wife.You don't want to be wasted and worthless by the time that your life partner has arrived.

We all deserve to be happy! To love and to be loved! Its a beautiful thing.Learn to be selfish with your heart,save your emotions, invest your love and keep it safe for that someone special...it will all be worth it one day.

From;A recovered heart