Life without my king.

Teenage life without a father.

Life has thrown me with millions of stones but the hardest stone was aimed straight at my heart and indeed it hit home and it hit hard.I had to learn how to stand up again,dust off the dirt,rumors,gossip,the laughs,the comments and the pain then get up and deal with life and living without a father! Its been four years now but it seems as though it was just lastnight when my dad last tucked me into bed but now I lay in bed not knowing where my father places his head at night and even still I continue to wonder if he thinks of me,does he get flash backs of how life was when he was still around,does he dream of me and the great family that we had.

Thousands of South African teenagers have fallen victim to living without a father because of death,divorce and simply irresponsible men that forget that they've planted seeds in the wombs of women that they may have"once upon a time"loved.

Shout out to all the mothers raising their children alone,we salute you,respect you,love and appreciate you but 1 parent cannot take over the role of the another. My mother can't walk me down the isle,she can't negotiate ama lobolo wami,she can't teach my little brother how to shave!!! These are the roles of a father and even though she tries to cover up the gaps(which she's doing very well) I still want to be hugged by the masculine arms of a man I once called "daddy".

I don't believe in the saying"everything happens for a reason" if everything really happens for a reason why are millions of us still living without our fathers?.Time has not healed my broken wounds but maybe someday(I hope its someday soon) I'll learn to accept that things just don't work out the way they should.

Shout out to all teens living without a father. Learn to appreciate your uncles,brothers,grandfathers and all those men that have taken the role of being a father figure in your life and don't forget that even though your earthly father many not be around,there's a heavenly father that loves you unconditionally and will never leave your side.
Xxxxxx-large kisses Thabi.M