Simply Me

Lord I've fallen in love.
In love with this tiny body
In love with wide smile
In love with every curve you've provided.
In love with myself.

My bOOty is too small, am I an African woman?My boobs are too big for my chest.
My smile is too wide for my face.
My sharp eyes sink under my huge forehead.
My faces has become a home for scars,marks and blemishes.
My personality is too big for my body to carry.
My thoughts are too deep for those around me to understand.
My brain thinks just abit too much,so much that I end up depressing myself.

But still I've fallen in love with myself.

Simply because
writers cant find any other way
to categorize me in this world
where classification is key.

A grown lover

I like how we don't communicate for months then all of a sudden you pop back into my life and expect me to welcome you back home with a smile on my face.

Am I your "home cooked meal when you're tired of fast food?"
Or a cheap motel you check into when all is wrong?
Your escape from reality,some sort of addiction, your midnight drug?

Why do you do this to me?
To my heart!
To my soul that you leave broken and so so so cold!


You walk back into my life and all you bring is pain,dirt,pain ,hate,pain,anger. Even though I was with you,I felt so alone.
Your kisses no longer bring sunshine into my life.
Your touch no longer sends chills down my spine.
Instead you bring PAIN!
I loved you or maybe I lied!

You turned my winter mornings into warm summer nights but now your presence brings hailstorms.
I danced all night long to the rhythm of your heartbeat.
You made me dance between my sheets!
Loved you or maybe I lied but guess what.

Now I fly.
I am liberated.
My soul is at peace and my heart feels at home in my body because that's where it belongs!
Make-up is a thing of the past because now I glow from within!
You called me sexy and hot.
All those words made me feel so cheap!
I AM BEAUTIFUL,inside and out!
Was it so hard for you to see?

I am no longer that girl you killed with your empty promises.
Now I smile knowing that I complete myself!

Letting go of you and all your BULLSHIT has helped me grow!
Now I am a woman of dignity and honor,standards and pride.
And baby independence feels so good! Ohhhh it feels so right!

Now I know, how to dance in the rain!
Now I know how to love myself.
Now I know what it feels like to wake up with a smile on my face because true happiness means holding onto NOTHING!
I feel at ease!
SO CLEAN and so PURE!

That woman you're with right now.
I hope you don't destroy her as much as you destroyed me.
but
if
you
do,
I hope she reads this piece and walks away!
I pray for you suga.
I pray for you and all those other hearts you've broken!

I hope they find true love.
I hope they learn from their mistakes the same way that I did!
Even though you took me for a ride
Even though you broke me down
I was able to pick up what was left of me and somehow somewhere along the journey
I was able to rise again.
Maybe we fall so we can watch ourselves begin to RISE AGAIN.

STill I rise baby
Still I rise...

Prayer.Passion.Purpose

When I stand before God at the end of my life.
I hope that I don’t have a single bit of talent left, and say:
I want to proudly stand before him and say
‘I used everything you gave me’.

Prayer|Passion|Purpose

Lord, why did you make me black

“Lord, why did you make me black”

Lord, Lord, Why did You make me Black?
Why did You make someone The world wants to hold back? Black is the color of dirty clothes; The color of grimy hands and feet.
Black is the color of darkness; The color of tire-beaten streets. Why did You give me thick lips, A broad nose and kinky hair? Why did You make me someone Who receives the hatred stare?

Black is the color of the bruised eye When someone gets hurt. Black is the color of darkness, Black is the color of dirt. How come my bone structure’s so thick; My hips and cheeks are high? How come my eyes are brown And not the color of the daylight sky? Why do people think I’m useless?

How come I feel so used? Why do some people see my skin And think I should be abused? Lord, I just don’t understand. What is it about my skin? Why do some people want to hate me And not know the person within? Black is what people are “listed”, When others want to keep them away.

Black is the color of shadows cast. Black is the end of the day. Lord, You know, my own people mistreat me And I know this just isn’t right. They don’t like my hair or the way I look. They say I’m too dark or too light. Lord, don’t You think it’s time For You to make a change? Why don’t You re-do creation And make everyone the same?

GOD ANSWERED Why did I make you Black? Why did I make you Black? Get off your knees and look around. Tell Me, what do you see?

God:
I didn’t make you in the image of darkness, I made you in the Likeness of ME! I made you the color of coal From which beautiful diamonds are formed.

I made you the color of oil, The Black Gold that keeps people warm. I made you from the rich, dark earth That can grow the food you need. Your color’s the same as the panther’s Known for (HER) beauty and speed.
Your color’s the same as the Black stallion, A majestic animal is he. I didn’t make you in the Image of darkness. I made you in likeness of ME! All the colors of a Heavenly Rainbow Can be found throughout every nation; And when all of those colors were blended well, YOU BECAME MY GREATEST CREATION. Your hair is the texture of lamb’s wool. Such a humble, little creature is he. I am the Shepherd who watches them.
I am the One who will watch over thee. You are the color of midnight sky. I put the stars’ glitter in your eyes. There is a smile hidden behind your pain. That’s why your cheeks are so high. You are the color of dark clouds formed When I send My strongest weather. I made your lips full so when you kiss The one that you love, they will remember.
Your stature is strong; your bone structure, thick To withstand the burdens of time.

The reflection you see in the mirror…
The image looking back at you is MINE.

-someone wise

Brown little girl

Child of the soil.
Brown little girl with dreams so great.
Where has your spirit gone?
You're lost.
Lost into a world with no meaning and no depth!
Your hopes and dreams have been flooded by failure pain and mystery.
All you do all day is roam around the skies.
But when the night sky comes you now longer belong.
For you've become a fallen star.
You are lost child,you are lost.

Crawl back to the land where all your dreams where a marathon away.
You promised that you'd run this race without giving up!
You vowed that you wouldn't stop when you were tired but you'd only stop running the marathon when you were done!
No one said it would be easy.
No one said you won't fall.
No one said you wouldn't have mountains to climb!

You were the soon to be the greatest that the world was to discover!
A young rough diamond soon to be polished but now you are lost!
Lost into the arms of hate,bitterness loneliness!
Your heart knows no peace and your mind know no hope!

Come back to the seas where you swam with hope filling your lungs!
Where all you did was write about your plans and wake up to fulfill them!
Walk back onto that stage where your talents were mined!
Liberate yourself with those wise words that you wrote and preached to the nations!
Sing! Sing loud and proud.
You moved hearts with your voice! Inspired minds!
You were born great!
You were born great!

You were greatness!
Brown little girl.
You've got blessing with your name scribbled all over them!
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Don't take them to the grave!

Knocking on heavens door.

Lord what do you want from me?
For what good reason did you chase me out of heaven to this cruel cold world!Now I'm lost!

Lord what do you what from me?

This life things had become so confusing! I've been placed in a building where I have to crack my skull to get some piece of paper which apparently promises to give me the world.
what do you what from me!

You said you'd lead me! You promised to show me the way! You said you'd give me talents that I'd use to become great one day but where are you and where are they?

You vowed to give me a soulmate that would hold my hand as I walked through the valleys of darkness! U said he would be a part of me!Complete my being! But I'm still knocking on heavens door because I've been waiting way too long for this stranger that would soon become a man I'd share my life with.What do you want from me?

You've sent down your son and all those other 12 men to write down some book that would help direct me! But this thing that people call the bible is filled with so many stories and words that make me dizzy! Even though I may be a writer I still don't get it! Honestly I don't! So please tell me what do you want from me? You gave me parents that got married and vowed in front of u to stay together but now live in two different worlds on 1 continent! Apart but still so madly in love! And yet still you plan for me to get married?

Do you get why I'm so confused?

I have a questions for you!

Why do you make giving birth such a painful experience? Why do you keep taking all the good1s and leaving all these rotten souls behind(myself included) why? Why? Why do you make me bleed for a week, every month? Why do I have to go through so much pain only to prove that I am a woman, what about men why don't they bleed?you allowed them to think they're strong enough so why don't they bleed like I do!

And why did you have to make me black? Why do I have to wear the skin colour of a slave? The skin of poverty! Of crime! Dirt and oppression!

You promised to love me!

Fill my heart with love and hope.

I want to swear at you but apparently that would be disrespectful! I want to beat you so hard but your so far I can't even touch you! And that's another thing! How am I meant to believe and love and worship and praise a man I've never seen before?

Send me an email! A phone call would be nice or even an angel to explain all of this to me!

I'm like a body without a soul roaming around this world without meaning! And all I need to complete my existence are answer and letters from above.