Knocking on heavens door.

Lord what do you want from me?
For what good reason did you chase me out of heaven to this cruel cold world!Now I'm lost!

Lord what do you what from me?

This life things had become so confusing! I've been placed in a building where I have to crack my skull to get some piece of paper which apparently promises to give me the world.
what do you what from me!

You said you'd lead me! You promised to show me the way! You said you'd give me talents that I'd use to become great one day but where are you and where are they?

You vowed to give me a soulmate that would hold my hand as I walked through the valleys of darkness! U said he would be a part of me!Complete my being! But I'm still knocking on heavens door because I've been waiting way too long for this stranger that would soon become a man I'd share my life with.What do you want from me?

You've sent down your son and all those other 12 men to write down some book that would help direct me! But this thing that people call the bible is filled with so many stories and words that make me dizzy! Even though I may be a writer I still don't get it! Honestly I don't! So please tell me what do you want from me? You gave me parents that got married and vowed in front of u to stay together but now live in two different worlds on 1 continent! Apart but still so madly in love! And yet still you plan for me to get married?

Do you get why I'm so confused?

I have a questions for you!

Why do you make giving birth such a painful experience? Why do you keep taking all the good1s and leaving all these rotten souls behind(myself included) why? Why? Why do you make me bleed for a week, every month? Why do I have to go through so much pain only to prove that I am a woman, what about men why don't they bleed?you allowed them to think they're strong enough so why don't they bleed like I do!

And why did you have to make me black? Why do I have to wear the skin colour of a slave? The skin of poverty! Of crime! Dirt and oppression!

You promised to love me!

Fill my heart with love and hope.

I want to swear at you but apparently that would be disrespectful! I want to beat you so hard but your so far I can't even touch you! And that's another thing! How am I meant to believe and love and worship and praise a man I've never seen before?

Send me an email! A phone call would be nice or even an angel to explain all of this to me!

I'm like a body without a soul roaming around this world without meaning! And all I need to complete my existence are answer and letters from above.