A grown lover

I like how we don't communicate for months then all of a sudden you pop back into my life and expect me to welcome you back home with a smile on my face.

Am I your "home cooked meal when you're tired of fast food?"
Or a cheap motel you check into when all is wrong?
Your escape from reality,some sort of addiction, your midnight drug?

Why do you do this to me?
To my heart!
To my soul that you leave broken and so so so cold!


You walk back into my life and all you bring is pain,dirt,pain ,hate,pain,anger. Even though I was with you,I felt so alone.
Your kisses no longer bring sunshine into my life.
Your touch no longer sends chills down my spine.
Instead you bring PAIN!
I loved you or maybe I lied!

You turned my winter mornings into warm summer nights but now your presence brings hailstorms.
I danced all night long to the rhythm of your heartbeat.
You made me dance between my sheets!
Loved you or maybe I lied but guess what.

Now I fly.
I am liberated.
My soul is at peace and my heart feels at home in my body because that's where it belongs!
Make-up is a thing of the past because now I glow from within!
You called me sexy and hot.
All those words made me feel so cheap!
I AM BEAUTIFUL,inside and out!
Was it so hard for you to see?

I am no longer that girl you killed with your empty promises.
Now I smile knowing that I complete myself!

Letting go of you and all your BULLSHIT has helped me grow!
Now I am a woman of dignity and honor,standards and pride.
And baby independence feels so good! Ohhhh it feels so right!

Now I know, how to dance in the rain!
Now I know how to love myself.
Now I know what it feels like to wake up with a smile on my face because true happiness means holding onto NOTHING!
I feel at ease!
SO CLEAN and so PURE!

That woman you're with right now.
I hope you don't destroy her as much as you destroyed me.
but
if
you
do,
I hope she reads this piece and walks away!
I pray for you suga.
I pray for you and all those other hearts you've broken!

I hope they find true love.
I hope they learn from their mistakes the same way that I did!
Even though you took me for a ride
Even though you broke me down
I was able to pick up what was left of me and somehow somewhere along the journey
I was able to rise again.
Maybe we fall so we can watch ourselves begin to RISE AGAIN.

STill I rise baby
Still I rise...