Brown little girl

Child of the soil.
Brown little girl with dreams so great.
Where has your spirit gone?
You're lost.
Lost into a world with no meaning and no depth!
Your hopes and dreams have been flooded by failure pain and mystery.
All you do all day is roam around the skies.
But when the night sky comes you now longer belong.
For you've become a fallen star.
You are lost child,you are lost.

Crawl back to the land where all your dreams where a marathon away.
You promised that you'd run this race without giving up!
You vowed that you wouldn't stop when you were tired but you'd only stop running the marathon when you were done!
No one said it would be easy.
No one said you won't fall.
No one said you wouldn't have mountains to climb!

You were the soon to be the greatest that the world was to discover!
A young rough diamond soon to be polished but now you are lost!
Lost into the arms of hate,bitterness loneliness!
Your heart knows no peace and your mind know no hope!

Come back to the seas where you swam with hope filling your lungs!
Where all you did was write about your plans and wake up to fulfill them!
Walk back onto that stage where your talents were mined!
Liberate yourself with those wise words that you wrote and preached to the nations!
Sing! Sing loud and proud.
You moved hearts with your voice! Inspired minds!
You were born great!
You were born great!

You were greatness!
Brown little girl.
You've got blessing with your name scribbled all over them!
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Don't take them to the grave!

Knocking on heavens door.

Lord what do you want from me?
For what good reason did you chase me out of heaven to this cruel cold world!Now I'm lost!

Lord what do you what from me?

This life things had become so confusing! I've been placed in a building where I have to crack my skull to get some piece of paper which apparently promises to give me the world.
what do you what from me!

You said you'd lead me! You promised to show me the way! You said you'd give me talents that I'd use to become great one day but where are you and where are they?

You vowed to give me a soulmate that would hold my hand as I walked through the valleys of darkness! U said he would be a part of me!Complete my being! But I'm still knocking on heavens door because I've been waiting way too long for this stranger that would soon become a man I'd share my life with.What do you want from me?

You've sent down your son and all those other 12 men to write down some book that would help direct me! But this thing that people call the bible is filled with so many stories and words that make me dizzy! Even though I may be a writer I still don't get it! Honestly I don't! So please tell me what do you want from me? You gave me parents that got married and vowed in front of u to stay together but now live in two different worlds on 1 continent! Apart but still so madly in love! And yet still you plan for me to get married?

Do you get why I'm so confused?

I have a questions for you!

Why do you make giving birth such a painful experience? Why do you keep taking all the good1s and leaving all these rotten souls behind(myself included) why? Why? Why do you make me bleed for a week, every month? Why do I have to go through so much pain only to prove that I am a woman, what about men why don't they bleed?you allowed them to think they're strong enough so why don't they bleed like I do!

And why did you have to make me black? Why do I have to wear the skin colour of a slave? The skin of poverty! Of crime! Dirt and oppression!

You promised to love me!

Fill my heart with love and hope.

I want to swear at you but apparently that would be disrespectful! I want to beat you so hard but your so far I can't even touch you! And that's another thing! How am I meant to believe and love and worship and praise a man I've never seen before?

Send me an email! A phone call would be nice or even an angel to explain all of this to me!

I'm like a body without a soul roaming around this world without meaning! And all I need to complete my existence are answer and letters from above.

ART...

I just wanted to love you

Oh how I wanted to show you what true love really is.
Keep you safe in my arms.
Shelter you from all the weapons known on this earth.
Oh how I wanted you to be the king of my castle.
Father of my children.
President of my many hearts.
How I wanted to wrap my love around you.
Introduce you to a world of endless mind BLOWing conservations.
I want to take you to the moon and back.
I wanted to introduce you to the Lord.
Help you get up when the rest of the world watched you fall.

I was ready to let you take the lead role.
Make you a MAN.
A MAN people would write about in history.
I wanted to be by your right side.
Give up my career to help you develop yours.
Help you swim in the deepest oceans.
Sail across the world with you.
Kiss you like I'll never see you again.
Soak you in wealth and endless possibilities.
Give you something to ease your stress,Make sweet love to you.

Oh how I wanted to help you become a man of standards.
Principle.
Class.
A diamond in the sky.
A Man of honor.
Introduce you to my mother,to a world of royalty.

I wanted to feed you.
Help you dig up your greatest talents.
Help you grow.
I wanted to help you grow an empire for our grandchildren and for those that were to come after them.

I wanted to help you build up your account.
Do for you what Nelson did for the people.
Don't get me wrong,I didn't want to change you.
Never did I ever compare you.
Never wanted to upgrade you like B wanted to upgrade J.

I just wanted to make you mine.
I just wanted to simply love you.

There's a war taking place in my mind...

There's a war taking place in my mind.
Turn down these voices in my head.
Kill these evil thoughts.
Destroy these images of the past that roam around leaving scars of pain,fear ,insecurities and loneliness.
There's a war taking place in my mind,and the only thing my body needs
Is...a simple hug.

Drunk on Sands of Time

Drunk on Sands of Time
I've studied my life in slow motion
equipped with photos in frames
Read love letters so poignant
from fellows I can't even name

I've drank the best of brandy
full to the rim with no seam
Goblets of wine called the living
tasting the grapes 'til insane

I've danced a million dances
solved a thousand wars
Wore a hundred hats
but still I long for more

Mother, worker, child
lover sweet as silk
Warrior, champion, loser
the milk's not soured yet

I've watched death be swallowed
life brought in this world
Nursed the aged bitter
held the child scared

Went from rags to riches
kissed the frog that croaked
Studied human nature
slipped the hanging rope

Yet though stretched and tired
form weaving edges frayed
I'll circle, loop and pull the thread
to live this life again

For there's another chapter
another glass of wine
Blue or gray skies swallow me
I'm drunk on sands of time

Marcia Schechinger

Life without my king.

Teenage life without a father.

Life has thrown me with millions of stones but the hardest stone was aimed straight at my heart and indeed it hit home and it hit hard.I had to learn how to stand up again,dust off the dirt,rumors,gossip,the laughs,the comments and the pain then get up and deal with life and living without a father! Its been four years now but it seems as though it was just lastnight when my dad last tucked me into bed but now I lay in bed not knowing where my father places his head at night and even still I continue to wonder if he thinks of me,does he get flash backs of how life was when he was still around,does he dream of me and the great family that we had.

Thousands of South African teenagers have fallen victim to living without a father because of death,divorce and simply irresponsible men that forget that they've planted seeds in the wombs of women that they may have"once upon a time"loved.

Shout out to all the mothers raising their children alone,we salute you,respect you,love and appreciate you but 1 parent cannot take over the role of the another. My mother can't walk me down the isle,she can't negotiate ama lobolo wami,she can't teach my little brother how to shave!!! These are the roles of a father and even though she tries to cover up the gaps(which she's doing very well) I still want to be hugged by the masculine arms of a man I once called "daddy".

I don't believe in the saying"everything happens for a reason" if everything really happens for a reason why are millions of us still living without our fathers?.Time has not healed my broken wounds but maybe someday(I hope its someday soon) I'll learn to accept that things just don't work out the way they should.

Shout out to all teens living without a father. Learn to appreciate your uncles,brothers,grandfathers and all those men that have taken the role of being a father figure in your life and don't forget that even though your earthly father many not be around,there's a heavenly father that loves you unconditionally and will never leave your side.
Xxxxxx-large kisses Thabi.M