Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Simply Me


Lord I've fallen in love.
In love with this tiny body
In love with wide smile
In love with every curve you've provided.
In love with myself.

My bOOty is too small, am I an African woman?My boobs are too big for my chest.
My smile is too wide for my face.
My sharp eyes sink under my huge forehead.
My faces has become a home for scars,marks and blemishes.
My personality is too big for my body to carry.
My thoughts are too deep for those around me to understand.
My brain thinks just abit too much,so much that I end up depressing myself.

But still I've fallen in love with myself.

Simply because
writers cant find any other way
to categorize me in this world
where classification is key.

A grown lover


I like how we don't communicate for months then all of a sudden you pop back into my life and expect me to welcome you back home with a smile on my face.

Am I your "home cooked meal when you're tired of fast food?"
Or a cheap motel you check into when all is wrong?
Your escape from reality,some sort of addiction, your midnight drug?

Why do you do this to me?
To my heart!
To my soul that you leave broken and so so so cold!


You walk back into my life and all you bring is pain,dirt,pain ,hate,pain,anger. Even though I was with you,I felt so alone.
Your kisses no longer bring sunshine into my life.
Your touch no longer sends chills down my spine.
Instead you bring PAIN!
I loved you or maybe I lied!

You turned my winter mornings into warm summer nights but now your presence brings hailstorms.
I danced all night long to the rhythm of your heartbeat.
You made me dance between my sheets!
Loved you or maybe I lied but guess what.

Now I fly.
I am liberated.
My soul is at peace and my heart feels at home in my body because that's where it belongs!
Make-up is a thing of the past because now I glow from within!
You called me sexy and hot.
All those words made me feel so cheap!
I AM BEAUTIFUL,inside and out!
Was it so hard for you to see?

I am no longer that girl you killed with your empty promises.
Now I smile knowing that I complete myself!

Letting go of you and all your BULLSHIT has helped me grow!
Now I am a woman of dignity and honor,standards and pride.
And baby independence feels so good! Ohhhh it feels so right!

Now I know, how to dance in the rain!
Now I know how to love myself.
Now I know what it feels like to wake up with a smile on my face because true happiness means holding onto NOTHING!
I feel at ease!
SO CLEAN and so PURE!

That woman you're with right now.
I hope you don't destroy her as much as you destroyed me.
but
if
you
do,
I hope she reads this piece and walks away!
I pray for you suga.
I pray for you and all those other hearts you've broken!

I hope they find true love.
I hope they learn from their mistakes the same way that I did!
Even though you took me for a ride
Even though you broke me down
I was able to pick up what was left of me and somehow somewhere along the journey
I was able to rise again.
Maybe we fall so we can watch ourselves begin to RISE AGAIN.

STill I rise baby
Still I rise...

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Prayer.Passion.Purpose

When I stand before God at the end of my life.
I hope that I don’t have a single bit of talent left, and say:
I want to proudly stand before him and say
‘I used everything you gave me’.

Prayer|Passion|Purpose

Friday, December 7, 2012

Lord, why did you make me black

“Lord, why did you make me black”

Lord, Lord, Why did You make me Black?
Why did You make someone The world wants to hold back? Black is the color of dirty clothes; The color of grimy hands and feet.
Black is the color of darkness; The color of tire-beaten streets. Why did You give me thick lips, A broad nose and kinky hair? Why did You make me someone Who receives the hatred stare?

Black is the color of the bruised eye When someone gets hurt. Black is the color of darkness, Black is the color of dirt. How come my bone structure’s so thick; My hips and cheeks are high? How come my eyes are brown And not the color of the daylight sky? Why do people think I’m useless?

How come I feel so used? Why do some people see my skin And think I should be abused? Lord, I just don’t understand. What is it about my skin? Why do some people want to hate me And not know the person within? Black is what people are “listed”, When others want to keep them away.

Black is the color of shadows cast. Black is the end of the day. Lord, You know, my own people mistreat me And I know this just isn’t right. They don’t like my hair or the way I look. They say I’m too dark or too light. Lord, don’t You think it’s time For You to make a change? Why don’t You re-do creation And make everyone the same?

GOD ANSWERED Why did I make you Black? Why did I make you Black? Get off your knees and look around. Tell Me, what do you see?

God:
I didn’t make you in the image of darkness, I made you in the Likeness of ME! I made you the color of coal From which beautiful diamonds are formed.

I made you the color of oil, The Black Gold that keeps people warm. I made you from the rich, dark earth That can grow the food you need. Your color’s the same as the panther’s Known for (HER) beauty and speed.
Your color’s the same as the Black stallion, A majestic animal is he. I didn’t make you in the Image of darkness. I made you in likeness of ME! All the colors of a Heavenly Rainbow Can be found throughout every nation; And when all of those colors were blended well, YOU BECAME MY GREATEST CREATION. Your hair is the texture of lamb’s wool. Such a humble, little creature is he. I am the Shepherd who watches them.
I am the One who will watch over thee. You are the color of midnight sky. I put the stars’ glitter in your eyes. There is a smile hidden behind your pain. That’s why your cheeks are so high. You are the color of dark clouds formed When I send My strongest weather. I made your lips full so when you kiss The one that you love, they will remember.
Your stature is strong; your bone structure, thick To withstand the burdens of time.

The reflection you see in the mirror…
The image looking back at you is MINE.

-someone wise

Brown little girl

Child of the soil.
Brown little girl with dreams so great.
Where has your spirit gone?
You're lost.
Lost into a world with no meaning and no depth!
Your hopes and dreams have been flooded by failure pain and mystery.
All you do all day is roam around the skies.
But when the night sky comes you now longer belong.
For you've become a fallen star.
You are lost child,you are lost.

Crawl back to the land where all your dreams where a marathon away.
You promised that you'd run this race without giving up!
You vowed that you wouldn't stop when you were tired but you'd only stop running the marathon when you were done!
No one said it would be easy.
No one said you won't fall.
No one said you wouldn't have mountains to climb!

You were the soon to be the greatest that the world was to discover!
A young rough diamond soon to be polished but now you are lost!
Lost into the arms of hate,bitterness loneliness!
Your heart knows no peace and your mind know no hope!

Come back to the seas where you swam with hope filling your lungs!
Where all you did was write about your plans and wake up to fulfill them!
Walk back onto that stage where your talents were mined!
Liberate yourself with those wise words that you wrote and preached to the nations!
Sing! Sing loud and proud.
You moved hearts with your voice! Inspired minds!
You were born great!
You were born great!

You were greatness!
Brown little girl.
You've got blessing with your name scribbled all over them!




Don't take them to the grave!

Knocking on heavens door.


Lord what do you want from me?
For what good reason did you chase me out of heaven to this cruel cold world!Now I'm lost!

Lord what do you what from me?

This life things had become so confusing! I've been placed in a building where I have to crack my skull to get some piece of paper which apparently promises to give me the world.
what do you what from me!

You said you'd lead me! You promised to show me the way! You said you'd give me talents that I'd use to become great one day but where are you and where are they?

You vowed to give me a soulmate that would hold my hand as I walked through the valleys of darkness! U said he would be a part of me!Complete my being! But I'm still knocking on heavens door because I've been waiting way too long for this stranger that would soon become a man I'd share my life with.What do you want from me?

You've sent down your son and all those other 12 men to write down some book that would help direct me! But this thing that people call the bible is filled with so many stories and words that make me dizzy! Even though I may be a writer I still don't get it! Honestly I don't! So please tell me what do you want from me? You gave me parents that got married and vowed in front of u to stay together but now live in two different worlds on 1 continent! Apart but still so madly in love! And yet still you plan for me to get married?

Do you get why I'm so confused?

I have a questions for you!

Why do you make giving birth such a painful experience? Why do you keep taking all the good1s and leaving all these rotten souls behind(myself included) why? Why? Why do you make me bleed for a week, every month? Why do I have to go through so much pain only to prove that I am a woman, what about men why don't they bleed?you allowed them to think they're strong enough so why don't they bleed like I do!

And why did you have to make me black? Why do I have to wear the skin colour of a slave? The skin of poverty! Of crime! Dirt and oppression!

You promised to love me!

Fill my heart with love and hope.

I want to swear at you but apparently that would be disrespectful! I want to beat you so hard but your so far I can't even touch you! And that's another thing! How am I meant to believe and love and worship and praise a man I've never seen before?

Send me an email! A phone call would be nice or even an angel to explain all of this to me!

I'm like a body without a soul roaming around this world without meaning! And all I need to complete my existence are answer and letters from above.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

ART...









I just wanted to love you


Oh how I wanted to show you what true love really is.
Keep you safe in my arms.
Shelter you from all the weapons known on this earth.
Oh how I wanted you to be the king of my castle.
Father of my children.
President of my many hearts.
How I wanted to wrap my love around you.
Introduce you to a world of endless mind BLOWing conservations.
I want to take you to the moon and back.
I wanted to introduce you to the Lord.
Help you get up when the rest of the world watched you fall.

I was ready to let you take the lead role.
Make you a MAN.
A MAN people would write about in history.
I wanted to be by your right side.
Give up my career to help you develop yours.
Help you swim in the deepest oceans.
Sail across the world with you.
Kiss you like I'll never see you again.
Soak you in wealth and endless possibilities.
Give you something to ease your stress,Make sweet love to you.

Oh how I wanted to help you become a man of standards.
Principle.
Class.
A diamond in the sky.
A Man of honor.
Introduce you to my mother,to a world of royalty.

I wanted to feed you.
Help you dig up your greatest talents.
Help you grow.
I wanted to help you grow an empire for our grandchildren and for those that were to come after them.

I wanted to help you build up your account.
Do for you what Nelson did for the people.
Don't get me wrong,I didn't want to change you.
Never did I ever compare you.
Never wanted to upgrade you like B wanted to upgrade J.

I just wanted to make you mine.
I just wanted to simply love you.

There's a war taking place in my mind...


There's a war taking place in my mind.
Turn down these voices in my head.
Kill these evil thoughts.
Destroy these images of the past that roam around leaving scars of pain,fear ,insecurities and loneliness.
There's a war taking place in my mind,and the only thing my body needs
Is...a simple hug.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Drunk on Sands of Time

Drunk on Sands of Time
I've studied my life in slow motion
equipped with photos in frames
Read love letters so poignant
from fellows I can't even name

I've drank the best of brandy
full to the rim with no seam
Goblets of wine called the living
tasting the grapes 'til insane

I've danced a million dances
solved a thousand wars
Wore a hundred hats
but still I long for more

Mother, worker, child
lover sweet as silk
Warrior, champion, loser
the milk's not soured yet

I've watched death be swallowed
life brought in this world
Nursed the aged bitter
held the child scared

Went from rags to riches
kissed the frog that croaked
Studied human nature
slipped the hanging rope

Yet though stretched and tired
form weaving edges frayed
I'll circle, loop and pull the thread
to live this life again

For there's another chapter
another glass of wine
Blue or gray skies swallow me
I'm drunk on sands of time

Marcia Schechinger

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Life without my king.

Teenage life without a father.

Life has thrown me with millions of stones but the hardest stone was aimed straight at my heart and indeed it hit home and it hit hard.I had to learn how to stand up again,dust off the dirt,rumors,gossip,the laughs,the comments and the pain then get up and deal with life and living without a father! Its been four years now but it seems as though it was just lastnight when my dad last tucked me into bed but now I lay in bed not knowing where my father places his head at night and even still I continue to wonder if he thinks of me,does he get flash backs of how life was when he was still around,does he dream of me and the great family that we had.

Thousands of South African teenagers have fallen victim to living without a father because of death,divorce and simply irresponsible men that forget that they've planted seeds in the wombs of women that they may have"once upon a time"loved.

Shout out to all the mothers raising their children alone,we salute you,respect you,love and appreciate you but 1 parent cannot take over the role of the another. My mother can't walk me down the isle,she can't negotiate ama lobolo wami,she can't teach my little brother how to shave!!! These are the roles of a father and even though she tries to cover up the gaps(which she's doing very well) I still want to be hugged by the masculine arms of a man I once called "daddy".

I don't believe in the saying"everything happens for a reason" if everything really happens for a reason why are millions of us still living without our fathers?.Time has not healed my broken wounds but maybe someday(I hope its someday soon) I'll learn to accept that things just don't work out the way they should.

Shout out to all teens living without a father. Learn to appreciate your uncles,brothers,grandfathers and all those men that have taken the role of being a father figure in your life and don't forget that even though your earthly father many not be around,there's a heavenly father that loves you unconditionally and will never leave your side.
Xxxxxx-large kisses Thabi.M

Friday, August 10, 2012

Closure


Prayed that you and I might be together.
Thought it was written in the stars and
Engraved in the skies.
That you and I could grow old together.

SKIN


I live in this skin covered with confidence and soaked in love from within.I live in this skin and these scars all over my temple are filled with memories of those childhood days and my childish ways.

I live in this skin, therefore I am this skin! It has been burnt dark by the african sun that reminds me daily of my being,who I am! acne scared face reminding me of my teenage insecuritiesnd tried to heal with chemicals created by the white man but nothing helped because I had to learn to love myself from within!

I live in this skin,this skin which is the same tone as my mothers,her beauty spreads across my face as I look into the mirror and see her in me.

This skin oooooooh I live in this skin! Its been gently touched,warmed by midnight kisses and cuddled against the skin of a dark man with beautiful black skin.A dark skinned man I thought I could call my own but clearly he instead was attracted by this skin and what lived outside it and chose not to dance to the music created by my heart!

This skin is beautiful! It may not be what the world wants it to be but it is mine and I am thankful,for I am blessed to live in this skin! It covers and protects me! It is my certified stamp of uniqueness! God designed and tailor made it to fit me n' me alone! Oh how blessed am I! Skin you are loved! Oh yes you are adorned .You stretch with me as I grow! You are my armor against the world.My 1st Home,My warmth when all seems cold! And even though you may crack and burn at times,you will forever remain my skin because I LIVE in this skin!

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Strangers with memories

We refer to them as our girls our sisters! G! GF! Mgani! Chomee! The list goes on and one but I sometimes feel as though we've forgotten the true meaning of sisterhood and what it means to be true friends! We've known each other for years! We spend more time with each other than we do with family and that's the beauty of it all!
Memories
The fact that friends can become family,and that's just priceless! That famous saying that goes"birds of the same feathers flock together is so true" your friends are a true representation of who you are as an individual! I mean there's a reason or some sort of link that attracted the friendship! Sooooo on that note be careful who you associate yourself with and who you call your friends because as much as we may try and brush it off people talk and people judge.

Don't send out a bad reputation for yourself because I'm pretty sure that your mama taught you better than that! Love your friends but don't trust any of them! Some are here today and gone tomorrow! You don't what your life and all your business scattered around the whole city! Keep soOomethings private! After all its your life learn to love yourself and to also become your own friend! And by loving and knowing yourself you'll be able to choose and attract the right friends! People that are uplifting,motivating, a shoulder to cry on and someone whose going to help you when your in need! That's what true friendship is all about! But you need to remeber that like all relationships its a 50/50 thing.

Keep your friendship private!don't go around gossiping about others don't compare your friends,stop judging and your friendships will remain healthy and drama free! Moto ke moto ka bato and a friend in need is a friend indeed so invest all your energy in friendships that are going to build you as an individual .Good luck,love you nanas:*

Friday, June 15, 2012

Blessed

Everyday I walk down to school its a daily routine and its not a long walk about5-8mins or so. As I walk alone down the road,from the minute I lock my flat door I pray till I get to the school gate. Simple day to day prayers giving thanks and asking for more blessings,guidance,wisdom and protection...well you know what I'm talking about.

Around the corner from my place there's always a young man about 17-19years of age(I think) and every time I pass by his always working on some form of hard labor such as:loading sand or bricks onto he's wheelbarrow and into the yard where he works.This young man stares at me straight into my eyes ALL THE TIME.Not that he wants to take anything away from me(I hope) and its also not that weird "I want you look" type of look.So I always make it a point to greet him cause I mean what else do you do when someone stares at you like that???.Sometimes he responds in a low voice ,just a simple "hello"but today he didn't.Then it hit me,maybe this young man is an angel sent from God.

Maybe he was sent to help remind me of how fortunate I am and that I cannot waste all that God has blessed me with. Every morning I walk down to a university where as he is working in the freezing cold, I've got warm clothes on and we'll he just has the same small size jersey and that's most probably the warmest thing he has in his closet this winter.This young fello has helped me to view my opportunities as a blessing because like myself and all the other students living in my complex this little man also has dreams(maybe even bigger than those that we carry in our souls) but he just doesn't have the opportunities in terms of funds.Even though he may not say much but a simple hello ,he has been a blessing in my life and I see it as a challenge to myself to atleast bless him in return(maybe I should give him my sweaters and trackpants on Monday or maybe even simple breakfast and lunch once in a while) maybe I should do that hey!!! Who knows maybe with my degree I could be working for him one day in he's company.Which is another lesson,don't look down on the less fortunate because tomorrow they could be a blessing in your life! You never know what tomorrow holds! Ke mo lefatseeng mo' kou se mhlabeni la,impilo iza jika broer wami.
So lesson number
1.Pray for blessings and they will be granted.
2.Give thanks.
3.Show appreciation by touching the lives of those around you.
4.Share your blessings.
5.Don't look down on others.
I'm not trying to act all holy holy but remember this: you are not here by chance,you are destined for greatness we are all here to fulfill our God given purpose and to bless and become blessing to others.

Keep this in your hearts' he loves you and has placed you on this earth not to suffer but to prosper. In philipians 4:19 he promised to supply all or needs and in 2Peter 5:7 he said that we should cast all our needs on him! P.ray U.ntil S.omething H.appens God works in many ways,it may not be today and yes he takes time but he's timing is always right.
I'll be praying for you

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Like a hooker, just smarter

Brazilian weaves,holidays,the flashy clothes,VIP treatment at clubs,endless supplies of food and the list goes on.When young hopeful girls leave home with the intention to study yet end up on the wrong track.These girls have started a trend that has left them degraded and worthless at the end of it all.

They sleep with these men and in return live this life. Their excuses are a whole list of pathetic reasoning such as" my parents can't afford to give me this life so these men are more than willing to do so,why not".Honestly ladies what happened to loving and respecting yourself!what happened to paying your own bill? What happened to independence and pride? Taking care of yourself before allowing anyone else to do so!These men are OLD! FATHERS! HUSBANDS ranging from the ages of 28 and above,taking advantage of naïve girls. Infact I could call this daylight prostitution. Sexual activities with these men could lead to contracting STD's.The fact that they could get impregnated by these men and have to go back home! What do you say to your mother? That the father of your unborn baby is a 35year married Nigerian man? WOW! The lack of dignity and the loss of values!

I remember my mom telling me that there are 3things a girl can bring back home from varsity ,a degree, a baby or HIV/Aids...that time wasted can never be regained,and its so true...I'm not judging you! I'm not belittling you or trying to make you feel worthless but the life your pushing is disgusting and it clearly shows that you don't take pride in yourselves as women! Hard work,prayer,ambition and goals could give you this life,instead of chasing men chase dreams,instead of opening your legs open your books and switch on your brains,instead of spending dirty money make your own.

Remember this: being a whore and sleeping your way up may get you to the top but it won't keep you there for long!

Monday, June 11, 2012

My wedding song' "Adorn"



"Adorn"

These lips
Can't wait to taste your skin baby
No, no
And these eyes, yeah
Can't wait to see your grin
Ooh ooh baby
Just let my love
Just let my love adorn you
Please baby, yeah
You gotta know
You gotta know
You know
That I adorn you
Yeah baby

Baby this fist
Will always protect ya, lady
And this mind oh,
Will never neglect you,
Yeah baby,
Oh baby
And this thang
Trying to break us down
Don't let that affect us,
No baby
You just gotta let my love
Let my love
Let my love adorn you
Ah, le-le-le-let it just adorn you
You got to know
You gotta know
Know that I adorn you
Just that babe

I... oh oh
Let my love adorn you baby
Don't you ever
Don't you let nobody tell you different baby
I'll always adorn you
You gotta know now
You got to know know know
Now yeah...

Thursday, June 7, 2012

ON TOP of the game



Hello there lovers and friends.Well all those that know ME on a personal level know that I'm all for educated successful people who live the lavish life. I'm all for the money! The clothes the fast cars ,jets and the boats! Breakfast on the beach and dinner in paris type of thing! My kids will be fed with diamond encrusted spoons!that's my life...yes a few more years of pushing and I'll be there(God willingly) TO THE TOP...the bottom is too crowded.


Ok ok ok well this post is actually about Melody Motha Molale this here is the epitome of it all! A lady in her mid 20's, A Joburger,though I hear she grew up in Witbank and also went to Liberty Christian College(where I matriculated) WITBANK STAND UP!I always tell my girls that this lady right here is living my life and I want it back when I'm 25*flicks her weave* she's a university graduate (shout out to UJ)yes shout out to all those with qualifications behind them, I RESPECT YOU!


Mel's a fashion forward trend setter of note(check her blog "for fashion freaks" ) A wife and well she's thee IT GIRL in my books!!! Its not everyday where you find such a highly blessed lady that's a humble sweetheart .You won't find Mel on the front page of your Sunday papers or on TV attempting to be a celebrity or what you happen to call "socialites" NO_I personally think some people should relax and actually be in the lam light for verified good reason such as TALENT and not because you happen to be "HOT" lol I won't mention any words ...see she doesn't haven't to say much because her lifestyle says it all.So all those(broke) money flashing pigs can lay back.


Big up lady, your doing IT and you doing IT well.Your a great inspiring to young ladies like myself! 10/10 sister THE WORLD NEEDS MORE LADIES LIKE YOU! *A standing ovation*

Friday, May 25, 2012

I am an African


I am an African.

I owe my being to the hills and the valleys, the mountains and the glades, the rivers, the deserts, the trees, the flowers, the seas and the ever-changing seasons that define the face of our native land.

My body has frozen in our frosts and in our latter day snows. It has thawed in the warmth of our sunshine and melted in the heat of the midday sun. The crack and the rumble of the summer thunders, lashed by startling lightening, have been a cause both of trembling and of hope.

The fragrances of nature have been as pleasant to us as the sight of the wild blooms of the citizens of the veld.

The dramatic shapes of the Drakensberg, the soil-coloured waters of the Lekoa, iGqili noThukela, and the sands of the Kgalagadi, have all been panels of the set on the natural stage on which we act out the foolish deeds of the theatre of our day.

At times, and in fear, I have wondered whether I should concede equal citizenship of our country to the leopard and the lion, the elephant and the springbok, the hyena, the black mamba and the pestilential mosquito.

A human presence among all these, a feature on the face of our native land thus defined, I know that none dare challenge me when I say - I am an African!

I owe my being to the Khoi and the San whose desolate souls haunt the great expanses of the beautiful Cape - they who fell victim to the most merciless genocide our native land has ever seen, they who were the first to lose their lives in the struggle to defend our freedom and dependence and they who, as a people, perished in the result.

Today, as a country, we keep an audible silence about these ancestors of the generations that live, fearful to admit the horror of a former deed, seeking to obliterate from our memories a cruel occurrence which, in its remembering, should teach us not and never to be inhuman again.

I am formed of the migrants who left Europe to find a new home on our native land. Whatever their own actions, they remain still, part of me.

In my veins courses the blood of the Malay slaves who came from the East. Their proud dignity informs my bearing, their culture a part of my essence. The stripes they bore on their bodies from the lash of the slave master are a reminder embossed on my consciousness of what should not be done.

I am the grandchild of the warrior men and women that Hintsa and Sekhukhune led, the patriots that Cetshwayo and Mphephu took to battle, the soldiers Moshoeshoe and Ngungunyane taught never to dishonour the cause of freedom.

My mind and my knowledge of myself is formed by the victories that are the jewels in our African crown, the victories we earned from Isandhlwana to Khartoum, as Ethiopians and as the Ashanti of Ghana, as the Berbers of the desert.

I am the grandchild who lays fresh flowers on the Boer graves at St Helena and the Bahamas, who sees in the mind's eye and suffers the suffering of a simple peasant folk, death, concentration camps, destroyed homesteads, a dream in ruins.

I am the child of Nongqause. I am he who made it possible to trade in the world markets in diamonds, in gold, in the same food for which my stomach yearns.

I come of those who were transported from India and China, whose being resided in the fact, solely, that they were able to provide physical labour, who taught me that we could both be at home and be foreign, who taught me that human existence itself demanded that freedom was a necessary condition for that human existence.

Being part of all these people, and in the knowledge that none dare contest that assertion, I shall claim that - I am an African.

I have seen our country torn asunder as these, all of whom are my people, engaged one another in a titanic battle, the one redress a wrong that had been caused by one to another and the other, to defend the indefensible.

I have seen what happens when one person has superiority of force over another, when the stronger appropriate to themselves the prerogative even to annul the injunction that God created all men and women in His image.

I know what if signifies when race and colour are used to determine who is human and who, sub-human.

I have seen the destruction of all sense of self-esteem, the consequent striving to be what one is not, simply to acquire some of the benefits which those who had improved themselves as masters had ensured that they enjoy.

I have experience of the situation in which race and colour is used to enrich some and impoverish the rest.

I have seen the corruption of minds and souls in the pursuit of an ignoble effort to perpetrate a veritable crime against humanity.

I have seen concrete expression of the denial of the dignity of a human being emanating from the conscious, systemic and systematic oppressive and repressive activities of other human beings.

There the victims parade with no mask to hide the brutish reality - the beggars, the prostitutes, the street children, those who seek solace in substance abuse, those who have to steal to assuage hunger, those who have to lose their sanity because to be sane is to invite pain.

Perhaps the worst among these, who are my people, are those who have learnt to kill for a wage. To these the extent of death is directly proportional to their personal welfare.

And so, like pawns in the service of demented souls, they kill in furtherance of the political violence in KwaZulu-Natal. They murder the innocent in the taxi wars.

They kill slowly or quickly in order to make profits from the illegal trade in narcotics. They are available for hire when husband wants to murder wife and wife, husband.

Among us prowl the products of our immoral and amoral past - killers who have no sense of the worth of human life, rapists who have absolute disdain for the women of our country, animals who would seek to benefit from the vulnerability of the children, the disabled and the old, the rapacious who brook no obstacle in their quest for self-enrichment.

All this I know and know to be true because I am an African!

Because of that, I am also able to state this fundamental truth that I am born of a people who are heroes and heroines.

I am born of a people who would not tolerate oppression.

I am of a nation that would not allow that fear of death, torture, imprisonment, exile or persecution should result in the perpetuation of injustice.

The great masses who are our mother and father will not permit that the behaviour of the few results in the description of our country and people as barbaric.

Patient because history is on their side, these masses do not despair because today the weather is bad. Nor do they turn triumphalist when, tomorrow, the sun shines.

Whatever the circumstances they have lived through and because of that experience, they are determined to define for themselves who they are and who they should be.

We are assembled here today to mark their victory in acquiring and exercising their right to formulate their own definition of what it means to be African.

The constitution whose adoption we celebrate constitutes and unequivocal statement that we refuse to accept that our Africanness shall be defined by our race, colour, gender of historical origins.

It is a firm assertion made by ourselves that South Africa belongs to all who live in it, black and white.

It gives concrete expression to the sentiment we share as Africans, and will defend to the death, that the people shall govern.

It recognises the fact that the dignity of the individual is both an objective which society must pursue, and is a goal which cannot be separated from the material well-being of that individual.

It seeks to create the situation in which all our people shall be free from fear, including the fear of the oppression of one national group by another, the fear of the disempowerment of one social echelon by another, the fear of the use of state power to deny anybody their fundamental human rights and the fear of tyranny.

It aims to open the doors so that those who were disadvantaged can assume their place in society as equals with their fellow human beings without regard to colour, race, gender, age or geographic dispersal.

It provides the opportunity to enable each one and all to state their views, promote them, strive for their implementation in the process of governance without fear that a contrary view will be met with repression.

It creates a law-governed society which shall be inimical to arbitrary rule.

It enables the resolution of conflicts by peaceful means rather than resort to force.

It rejoices in the diversity of our people and creates the space for all of us voluntarily to define ourselves as one people.

As an African, this is an achievement of which I am proud, proud without reservation and proud without any feeling of conceit.

Our sense of elevation at this moment also derives from the fact that this magnificent product is the unique creation of African hands and African minds.

Bit it is also constitutes a tribute to our loss of vanity that we could, despite the temptation to treat ourselves as an exceptional fragment of humanity, draw on the accumulated experience and wisdom of all humankind, to define for ourselves what we want to be.

Together with the best in the world, we too are prone to pettiness, petulance, selfishness and short-sightedness.

But it seems to have happened that we looked at ourselves and said the time had come that we make a super-human effort to be other than human, to respond to the call to create for ourselves a glorious future, to remind ourselves of the Latin saying: Gloria est consequenda - Glory must be sought after!

Today it feels good to be an African.

It feels good that I can stand here as a South African and as a foot soldier of a titanic African army, the African National Congress, to say to all the parties represented here, to the millions who made an input into the processes we are concluding, to our outstanding compatriots who have presided over the birth of our founding document, to the negotiators who pitted their wits one against the other, to the unseen stars who shone unseen as the management and administration of the Constitutional Assembly, the advisers, experts and publicists, to the mass communication media, to our friends across the globe - congratulations and well done!

I am an African.

I am born of the peoples of the continent of Africa.

The pain of the violent conflict that the peoples of Liberia, Somalia, the Sudan, Burundi and Algeria is a pain I also bear.

The dismal shame of poverty, suffering and human degradation of my continent is a blight that we share.

The blight on our happiness that derives from this and from our drift to the periphery of the ordering of human affairs leaves us in a persistent shadow of despair.

This is a savage road to which nobody should be condemned.

This thing that we have done today, in this small corner of a great continent that has contributed so decisively to the evolution of humanity says that Africa reaffirms that she is continuing her rise from the ashes.

Whatever the setbacks of the moment, nothing can stop us now!
Whatever the difficulties, Africa shall be at peace!
However improbable it may sound to the sceptics, Africa will prosper!

Whoever we may be, whatever our immediate interest, however much we carry baggage from our past, however much we have been caught by the fashion of cynicism and loss of faith in the capacity of the people, let us err today and say - nothing can stop us now!

Thabo.Mbeki

STILL I RISE

Still I Rise
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.
Maya Angelou

Its never 2 late 2 say "thank you"! To show appreciation as we continue to count our blessings be thankful for all it is that we have been granted and to share our blessings with others as a sign of graduate and thankfulness.

Its never 2 late 2 forgive,to let go of all those that have left scars on our hearts because by forgiving them we're allowing these scars to heal.

Its never 2 late 2 learn new things,to explore avenues that we've never traveled discover new things each day.To open up or minds and to listen and learn from those with greater knowledge.

Its never 2 let 2 let go! To let go of all those chains that are holding you back,to break free and to start living your life the way that you want to instead of trying to please those around you and to start living your life like it golden.

Its never 2 late 2 start dreaming,for a person without dreams,a plan and aspirations is a person with no direction and he serves no purpose on this earth.

Its never 2 late 2 start loving and to say"I love you" for the love that we share with the rest of the world says that we are ready to receive greater joy and happiness in our lives and its so much greater to open up your heart to others but remember to love yourself before sharing your heart with world.

Its never 2 late 2 start changing,to grow and to mature into the person that you want to be,to let go of your old ways and to start your life on a new chapter.Change is good it maybe hard today but tomorrow it will be worth it.

Its never 2 late 2 join us on our journey with God as Christians and firm believers for he holds greater power,works in miraculous ways he lives in us and as he's children we are blessed! Oh yes we are

Its never 2 late! Take that chance its within the reach of your arms and even though things may seem unclear now,remember that its never 2 late because the seeds that we plant today will produce great fruit one day!

So I guess its never 2 late my dear lovers and friends!

Feared by the devil


I am a woman feared by the devil when I wake up and step on my side mat all hell breaks loose! He trembles in fear of what greatness it is that I am to conquer today! Its in the words that I speak! The tone of my voice! My walk my talk the way that I swag! My style my shape oh he fears me and all that's in me!

He is intimidated by the knowledge that I carry in me! He crawls down in shame when he smells my scent from a distance! Alerts all he's slaves that I have arrived and so they should be aware! He hears my heals on the corridors of hell! Shocked at how he's evilness and temptations don't weaken me!

Still I rise still I rise,he respects me for the woman that I am,he says its in the values that I have,in the dignity and morals that I've inherited from my great ancestors he says he salutes me for who I am and how I've continued to carry myself.

I make him bow! And I tell him that my God is greater than he could ever be,he bows he's head in shame and I say its in the way that I flick my weave how I swing my hips and how I grace the world with great presence and pride oh this man fears me!

My success and accomplishments weaken him! When I pray he's soul rips in pain! Its in the prayers that I say!The hymns that I sing and the Lord that I serve...I'm walking with the great1! The great1 from above and this is why I am a woman feared by the devil himself

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Death...


So we meet again.I'm in my highest heels got my make-up on point got my black dress,my hair is styled and to complete the look I've got my shades on.Like every other time I think I'm ready,until the final day then you reveal the weakness in me till the tears run down my race and I'm at my weakest.

You've managed to creep into my family once again, you've taken what belongs to me once again nd yes once again you've pierced into my heart and stolen what was once a part of my life...you make me wonder, and ask questions that no man has answers to! You've taken me to the graveyard once again and again and again but still I can never get used to you. Sometimes it takes years to sink in and but still these wounds that you've created have not healed.

Look its ok! Its ok that you come when I least expect you to,but its ok, its ok that you come and take those that I love the most,its ok... I've seen them come and I've seen them go and my gran says I'm still to see a lot but its ok... One day we'll meet and I'll stare at you right in the eye but till then please be gentle,give me a break once in a while...please don't take them all at once spare my grandparents and my parents so that they can atleast see me obtain my phd and walk down the isle.

You are not my best friend! No man is! But please be friendly! Be gentle and kind if you can...I love these people and cannot afford to loose anymore of them.
You've made me weak! Torn me down and at times you've made me feel as though I could never move on and continue to live my life.So please be gentle ALLOW MY SOUL TO HEAL,till we meet again

Overcome Your Fears


I am a woman feared by the devil hated by many and appreciated by those who have taken the time to actually get to know me.I've grown to understand that people will throw their evil words and sometimes unnecessary comments but I've chosen not to care.I will continue to grace the world with my head up high,dignity and pride...my mommy taught me well.

And you know what...such is life,not everyone is going to love you and not everyone is going to appreciate you "THAT'S JUST THE WAY IT IS". Its sad how people continue to point out fingers yet forget to look at themselves and revaluate their lives before rushing into gossiping about others. We are all human and we cannot and will never be perfect!.We make mistakes and we learn from them. That's the beauty of life.We are all here to create ourselves and to become "the better person".

Singa'dinwa habantu and what it is that they have to say! We're moving up from here,the bottom is too crowded.We cannot continue to hide behind the shadows of others because we are to afraid to live.
Live child live! Dance to the rhythm of your own beat! Sin songs! Songs of wisdom and songs of knowledge so that you can also teach those around you.Keep your heels,head and standards high! Know your worth don't scoop too low! But also remember to be humble,don't look down on others and be respectful.

Don't loose your values nama sigo wa se khaye!Don't compare yourself to those around you! Your different,unique and special so embrace it. Appreciate who you are and what God has blessed you with.People will always have something to say others will be jealous,some will compete with you in secrete but still claim to be your friends.

Others can't wait to see you fall but you are*DESTINED FOR GREATNESS(don't ever forget this).Someday soon your going to make it because your a product of the *Worlds greatest ...let your faith be bigger than your fears we cannot fail with God by our side!

A.Recovered.Heart

Many wonder why I've been single for almost 3years now. The reactions on their faces are classic throwing questions like "how have you survived?don't you get lonely?what's your problem?" Or my favorite one"who hurt you that badly".


Well here it is
"If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t, nothing can make him stay. Never let him know everything, he will use it against you later. He’s a man. Nothing more, nothing less. You should never look for someone to complete you. A relationship is consisted of two whole individuals. Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are and know that you’re readily available, he will take you for granted.” -Oprah


I want to be in a relationship with the right person,for the right reasons and at the right time.. I've had to take sometime away from the aches and pains,those smiles and those tears and the ups and downs of this love game.I've had to take some time to have conversations with myself and with my heart. I wanted to love myself completely before I could love anyone else,to complete myself before I could call someone "my better half".

I've seen it in my circles of friendships,how we fall into the arms of a person that we do not know simply because we like the "idea" of being with someone else,the "idea" of having someone tell you that your beautiful,that your special and that he will always be there forever. I don't want someone who is going to tell me that he is going to be here forever because no man knows how long forever is. I want a man that going to tell me that he will be here every step of the way,that he will keep me going when I've lost all my strenght:note I said "I want a man" not that I "need a man".

I've been hurt! Felt like I was cheated! Like I had been taken on a ride! Used and abused and I'd be stupid to fall into that trap again! To fall into the arms of a partner that's not willing to catch me! I think I'm worth more than that! Now that I've learned what it feels like to cry,I feel like I also deserve a slice Of happiness and this time I want to be caught before I hit the ground!!

All I'm saying is that we shouldn't rush into things before we are fully sure that we want to.That you should learn to appreciate and love yourself before you could love another person.

I'm at an age where I want stability I'm abit too matured for little micky mouse games that are only going to waste my time.If I'm going to invest my emotions it has to be with someone that I can build a future with,someone who is going to be worth my time and my emotions because these things can get abit emotionally draining and abit heavy on the heart.

You don't want to be in and out of relationships trying to find "the one".Let time play its part and a lot of the time you have to "create, shape and mold" your partner to be the one.

Invest your emotions on people that are going to build you as an individual.don't leave your heart in all these different places with all your ex's.Save some of that love for your life,husband or your wife.You don't want to be wasted and worthless by the time that your life partner has arrived.

We all deserve to be happy! To love and to be loved! Its a beautiful thing.Learn to be selfish with your heart,save your emotions, invest your love and keep it safe for that someone special...it will all be worth it one day.

From;A recovered heart

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

" Lets_Meditate"

Exhale the pains of our yesterdays and inhale the hopes of our todays also taking deep breaths with the faith that our tomorrows will unfold into brighter days.
Release all that tension from our yesterdays and inhale the beauty that lies in our todays and dream that our tomorrows will bring a more meaningful and productive day.

Adam and Eve!


I just want to be alone tonight! Alone in my own thoughts alone from the world and the evil souls in it alone! Alone far away from all these judgments.
In a place where I'll be appreciated for who I am.
In a place where I won't be judged by the way I walk,the way I talk,the way I dress or the way that I live my life.

This frustration kills me because right now I just want to be alone! Alone far away in a world where petrol prices aren't an issue! Where there's no politics and no elections where we are all being lied to!!Alone in a world where I can express myself and not have to worry about what abo mum Ruby or abo malume Jabulani that are going to talk about me, weeeeeh abo shwashwi! Far from a world where people are stealing my ideas and getting away with it! Far from a world where normal people are calling themselves celebrities*we are all one and in my world we are all equal because we were all created by one MAN!
Far from a world where fat people are calling themselves "thick bitches" far from this world where people are busy having unprotected sex but say they don't want babies or an std.

Alone far from all these assignments that have to be handed in ,alone in a world where even the colour of my skin has no sort of "stereotyping" yes I'm black and I'm proud of it! and its not like I chose to be black so sit down and deal with it.

Far from this world where people are telling me that I'm a bad girl and that my friends are bad to!Far from this place where people rape innocent people while others are record it! Far from this place where Kibi hung his 5year old daughter and hung himself! Far from this place where Lebo was burnt by her own boyfriend who is now a free man! Far from this place where I don't have to be hated and gossiped about because I'm unique! Far from this place where people are constantly reminding me that I'm a crazy loud girl!!! I've been hearing it for the past 19years its starting to get abit boring now.Far from this place where abo mamazala ba funa izi mali zama doda wetu!yoh yoh yoh! Take me NOW before I even get married and then divorced married and divorced again! Take me to a place where I can sing while giving birth! Whats this whole drama about? Why does giving birth have to be such a "painful"process anyway! Ha yes yes yes now I know where I want to go take me to a place where I can also be like Adele! Yep I also want to sing and write songs about my broken heart so that I can also be celebrated and win 8grammys!

Take me a world where I can sing my heart out!far from this place where people murder people and get away with it!


FUCK ADAM AND EVE FOR EATING THAT DAMN APPlE!!!! I HOPE that their asses are burning in hell! FUCK THEM because now I have to live my life with this damn thing called "sin".


Take me far away from this place where women have lost their ambition! Far from this place where women are now chasing married men and their money instead of making their own! Take me far from this world where Beyonce has believed that she can "run the world! Far from this place where Micheal Jackson became a white man over night(may his talented bleached soul rest in peace)I remember him singing "it don't matter if your black or white" how ironic?.

Lord take me!far from this place that's polluting my mind by having people trying to convince me that 2pac has risen from the dead! Take me far from all these fashion trends that I'm pressured to follow ... 1season its colour blocking now it monochromatic fashion, WILL IT EVER STOP?!

Far from this place where I'm told that I need a degree in order to make it in life*what the hell... my president doesn't have a qualification and he's busy telling me to go to school! School for what when I can also use my scandals and connections to get me to the top! Anyways who came up with this whole thing called education? How come our great grandmothers couldn't read and right but they lived long lives!lives longer than the "rich and educated"

And who the hell is this Chuck Noris dude tryna act live he created earth! And whats this whole thing ya "bosso ke mang"? Lord I need to escape hey! Run far away from all this madness!

Lord take me to that place! That place where I role a joint in public,smoke my weed all day! Enjoy my high and not be judged or called a"pot head".Take me far from this place where I'm being judge because I have a matching tattoo with my best friend that I met a year ago! LORD KERE CAN YOU HEAR ME wang'kutlwa mara ye???

Take me far from this world where my president can marry 6wives and still be respected??? Anyways Lord didn't Adam only have one wife? Or am I wrong? Am I reading from an incorrect bible? Take me to a place where I can have short hair and still be beautiful because I'm an african...A DAUGHTER OF THE SOIL!!
A place where there is no such thing as this whole thing called winter!

Take me to a place where people won't tell me that I'm too skinny and that I have big bOObs! Or that I have to be defined as a "yellow bone " in order to be "pretty" who came up with this whole "yellow bone" thing anyway? Honestly!!! Look here Lord I'm not complaining but what I'm asking for is to just go! Move me to another planet! And in this planet I don't want to be judged! I don't want people to tell me that I'm a "cheese girl" because I apparently"twang". Why can't you take me to a place where we are all kings! Where woman are appreciated! Where there's no teenage pregnancy or this thing that's killing our brothers and sisters!

Take me to a place where I don't have to set an alarm so that I won't be late for my lectures! To a place where I don't have to worry about walking or getting my drivers license because I can FLY! To a place where we can all sing all day and write poetry simply because WE CAN! To a place where there's no such thing as "beauty queens". To a place where we can all sit down and appreciate each others beauty!

To a place where my family members don't have to die! Where there's no fucken divorce,Sin,anger or fucken CANCER!



Take me to this place! Or I'll pop by your door sooner than you expected me to! Cause maybe like 2pac I could also rise from the dead and prove to the whole world that this YOLO thing is a whole load of BULLSH•T.

So can I book my ticket to this place or will you take me in my sleep?

See you when I get there...

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

From a Princess to her King♥


It's not everyday that a princess takes the opportunity to thank her king,her hero and her superman.

I thank my heavenly father for blessing me with the earthly father that I had.YIP my daddy was one of a kind,he was heaven sent! My daddy, my soldier,my source of strength,my everything and my WORLD.Even though things are no longer the same I will continue to give great praise and thanks for the mark that you left in my life.

My heart was the moon and you were the first man to walk on it! See your a legend daddy! My talents were developed because of the potential that you saw in me and because of your hope I learned how to dream. My love for music and art is bottomless because of the long Sunday afternoons that we spent together listening to good music while I sat on your lap and your words of wisdom have seen me through the darkest of days.Nobody says my name "Nhlanhla" the way you did and those are one of the many things that I miss about US and like you always said I'll always be your "little madam".

I'm taking this moment to thank all the men that play the roles of real mean in the lives of their little angels.

You have help to plant in us seeds that are soon to blossom into creation greater than any man has ever seen.


Enkosi for being there,playing your part and for taking responsibility.IT'S MEN LIKE YOU THAT WE DREAM OF GETTING MARRIED TO ONE DAY...Thanks for everything.
FROM A"little madam" TO HER "daddy" with love♥

Monday, April 23, 2012

"It's.Engraved.In.My.Soul"



I carry in me the Spirit of a POWERFUL.THINKER
The tongue of a WISE.SPEAKER
The HEART of a TRUE.BELIEVER and
The MIND of a GREAT.ACHIEVER
It's my way of life,its in my nature
Can't be taken away from me
Its engraved in my SOUL.


Sisterhood: for a sister, by a sister

with mel and koki in december on our way to a wedding:

 with wendy and gomotsegang on a chilled day in witbank:
 my nieces khgotaso and onarene:


It means so much to me to know that there will always be that circle of friends that I can rely on, that sister that's always there to hold your hand through it all,that shoulder to cry on* and that lady whose going to be there through it all.My mother always says "Rethabile motho ke motho ka bato" and now that I'm away from home I can see it.Its a cold world that we live in and it would be so much warmer if sisters learnt to appreciate one another! If ladies learnt to compliment each other instead of having to compete for no good reason. My sisters(some biological: Melita some not Melody Manthata, Zinhle Sibanyoni,Towa and Nontsika) are always and will always be there! be it when I need a lift in life, advice on matters of the heart or on simple things like lending me a top that I'd love to wear for the day*hides her face. We may fight and yes oh yes we may laugh,we may argue and we may disagree but its good to know that they'll always be around till the day I may be laid to rest(YOU BETTER BE THERE).I call for all sisters ,different races ,cultures,standards of living, sisters of every colour and shape yes you with that brazilian weave or even you with your natural locks,let's be there for  eachother.Help each other, be it in the work place, fitting rooms in the mall,helping to raise each others children or even smiling and complimenting at a random sister in the street( its a Monday we all need some sort of cheering up).Tell ur sister how much you love and appreciate her! give her that random phonecall! Or that simple bbm,tell her how much you value her and that she is beautiful,that she is strong and can conqueror the world cause you'll always be there for her! who knows tomorrow you might need that boost,that call,that top you'd love  lend from her,that hug or those simple 3 words that mean the world to every sister" YOYOU ARE BEAUTIFUL"... BY A SISTER ,FOR SISTER